Rediscover-I went to Burning Man, again.

Decompression. It’s September 4th, and Burning Man has been over for three days. I am now going through the winding down and recollection phase. This was my second burn, and I have to say it was quite an experience. I am thankful for every thing I learned, all the fun I had, and the uncomfortable things surrounding the event. For anyone who’s ever been to Burning Man, it’s a very high-stimulating environment with music playing twenty-four seven, and constant parties and activities going on on the Playa. It’s vibrant and exciting all the time, making it hard to wind down even with sleep. I won’t go to the entire details of what Burning Man is and what it represents, for those who have never gone, but for those of you who have not gone, Google, YouTube, Wikipedia it and decide if it’s something worth your respective efforts.


This year, going for me was a time  of revitalization and being renewed mentally, and emotionally. I feel that I’d been so bogged down by the issues of life living in a large city, that Burning Man would serve me well, renewing my faith in people, and myself. It did just that, as well as, giving me a bit of an ego along the way because suddenly I felt attractive to men, and to myself! Good shit! I really felt like a re-discovered myself out on the Playa and really got a sense of who I am, and the comfort of that woman really is moving me a long now that I’m back in “default” world. The only thing that I can judge in myself that I need to work on is the reality that my decompression has been difficult because I feel as though I slammed into a brick wall of the hardness of the society which I was able to escape for a little while.


I decided I’d go to some workshops this year, since last year I pretty much missed everything I planned for, however, this year I wore a watch. I like knowing the time out there. I walked around so much of the Playa, and got a Tarot Card reading, was given an energy number (9), I also went to a workshop called “I’m black, and I’m on the Playa”, and another workshop that gave some tips on how to talk to people without feelings of rejection (without fear), which I can’t remember its name. The “I’m black, and I’m on Playa” was interesting. I’ve got to thank my camp mate Bob for going with me. He’s a nice guy. There aren’t that many black people that attend Burning Man, and those that do, are in the position of not being able to tell their family members that they go because the members would be either afraid or appalled. There’s also the religious fact, as in Burning Man would appear hedonist to some person who ascribed to a faith, like Christianity. I enjoyed listening to all the different groups represented speak on their experiences. I also enjoyed all of the people who are white that came out to speak their peace and listen to what was being said. I wish they would have said more, but it was called “I’m black, and I’m on the Playa” for a reason. I walked away from that workshop a bit more aware of my color than I wanted to be, but I also felt a sense of obligation to speak freely about my race and what it means for me to be on the Playa for my second year, or even at all. –I suppose people would worry about whether that’s a *thing* but to me it is not unless someone makes it a thing, which tends to happen because let’s face it, idiots also attend Burning Man.

I came away renewed in a way because I felt as though I turned a corner on being more mature and responsible, it was important to me that I go and figure things out on my own. I realized some things about myself as well, that I’d actually been struggling with for so much of my life –Insecurity. I came back with some confidence. I felt enough for myself and enough for others. I felt ENOUGH. The real sense of belonging some place other than inside of my shell. I was complimented by all types of men, and many said hello or smiled, which fulfilled me. I didn’t feel any type of connection with any of them, but I felt good about the compliments and smiles.


I am back at work, still in a fog, and a bit disoriented. If it weren’t for my co-workers helping, my head would have exploded from all the hysteria. Burning Man while it gives you a sense of perspective because of it’s gifting economy, it also renews faith in mankind to a degree (it did so for me), and it makes you believe in the good outcome of man, although so many things in the world are wrong.


Why Christians Should Go To Burning Man



A Very Short Write-Up on My 2013 Burning Man Experience

…Sorry, not as short as I aimed for, but what can I say, it’s Burning Man!


Last month I went to Burning Man, the art and music event held in Black Rock City, Nevada. I had a great time, and was culture shocked by all the new things I suddenly found myself integrated in.  After a month of being home, I am still in many ways decompressing. Experiencing my first Burn was really like no other experience I can think of. I’ve experienced the downs of being post-Playa depressed, and new thoughts and ideas have taken root. Someone told me in an earlier blog that Burning Man was the most evil event in America. I beg to differ in the most sincere and empirical way. There are certain activities that are extremely pervasive at Burning Man, and there are  certain themed camps that truthfully are not of interest to me, but it’s liberating to know that whatever you want you’ll be able to find it on Playa. I wanted to have a really deeply rooted, from the heart conversation with anyone who’s experienced the disappointments of Christianity like I have. And while I attended a party at a dance camp I met a really nice guy whom I spoke with about God, spirituality, Burning Man, and specifically, Christianity. He was a former  church goer who left the church because he felt that there were attempts made by the rules (or guidelines of the church) to control him, and it was off-putting.  I thought it was interesting that somebody like him would even be in attendance for an event like Burning Man, and I asked him, “so what brought you here, given you background?” He basically loved the vibe and being around people who show unconditional love. Those are very specific likes that if you are on Playa are very liberating, and really just touch you heart in very deep ways. It’s impossible to return to the Default world the same way you left.

When I first arrived on Playa I was pretty disoriented. I was also exhausted because the entire trip kept me awake for 22 hours. I had not been awake that long in a couple of years, so it was unnerving, and I had to fall asleep while there was a lot of noise (Day 1 parties were popping off). Once I got a few hours of sleep and day broke, my friend took me out and showed me some of the art and just explained to me some of the social constructs of being in Black Rock City. I did not spend a single dime while there (money is forbidden except for the places that sell coffee and ice), so everything you receive is a gift from the heart of one person to yours. I was a sponge for the whole week soaking up information, and just trying to understand everything that was going on around me, and to be honest, many of the things I did not immediately understand, but I also felt freed by it, if that makes some bit of sense.

The Playa is a very pronounced (and sometimes harsh) environment, and what I mean is that there is a clarity to every experience, feeling, even the food tastes different, and better. Maybe the difference we aren’t packed into an over crowded city with tall buildings and  an overwhelming amount of distractions (our cellular phones, advertisements all over the city’s buildings and billboards, this laptop I am using to write this blog). You can have an amazing meal, laugh from the deepest part of your stomach, then spend the late evening having a beautiful sexual experience with someone you love.

What makes Burning Man evil to some people are assumptions, and misinformation given by evangelical Christian preachers and ignorant people via blogs, and other media outlets. It’s naturally ignorant to assume that something is evil because someone else tells you it is. Are you a blind follower of men(humans), or do you have a mind of your own? Another aspect that makes it evil  to some is that people go there and use drugs. Well, the local residence in your city probably do  too, are you going to move to another area? The drugs are there, but no one is forcing it upon you, you just have to keep you eyes pealed and operate in an integral manner.

I feel that Burning Man can be a beautiful experience for anyone who is willing to proceed with an opened mind at heart. This default world is our demise in some many ways, but I think Burning Man restores faith in our ability to love unconditionally, But these are my words based on my experience. I encourage any who is reading this to look into the social-psychology of Burning Man, and then makes plans to go. I do Burning Man no justice by sitting at a laptop and writing about it. To really understand it, you have to experience it.

The Man Burns in 332 days.

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Going to Burning Man-My First Burn

About 3 weeks ago, I was notified by the Burning Man Committee (??) that I was awarded a low-income ticket to Burning Man. A ticket will be waiting for me to pick up at will call on the day the event begins. For anyone who’s never heard of Burning Man or has heard of it but never been, there isn’t much info I can give you because it’s hard to explain. And I’ve had people explain it to me multiple times with their input being, “It’s hard to explain”. I am very excited that I am going to be preparing for the trip and event for the next 3 1/2 months. I will admit that I am very nervous about going. First of all, I don’t have a way to get there just yet. I have a good feeling that things will work out, but I haven’t purchased my main essentials yet because I am so afraid things won’t work out and I’ll end up having to stay home while everyone is out enjoying their fun, fun, fun, in the desert lands of Black Rock City. Another daunting thought is that the environment is quite different than what I’ve always been used to living here in Los Angeles, no phone reception, self-reliance, and living amongst 50 or so thousand people from all over the world is going to be very interesting yet also it will be a bit intimidating because this is will be my first Burning Man experience. I have met a few Burners and they’ve all seemed like some nice people. I am looking forward to connecting and just letting loose a bit and enjoying my time there. For those of you who’ve gone, what was your first experience at Burning Man ( I have yet to hear of anyone having a bad experience there), and what would be your advice to Newbies?