I am currently in my school’s library searching videos via YouTube regarding why God doesn’t answer prayer, and whether or not God exists. Most of the answers to the former is that He doesn’t answer our prayers of they aren’t what He wants for our life. Like I mentioned in my previous post about my father’s stroke, maybe God did not want my father and I to formulate a bond, and I have to accept that. But if I desired that was a selfish, or greedy? Or was I not synced with God’s will? Lastly, regardless of what was in my heart God still said, “no your dad wll not be wit you long?”
Christianity sometimes forces us not to pay attention to things that would other wise cause us not to believe, labeling it “faith”. I feel like whatever it is I pursue, whatever I am being patient for I want to know why. I don’t feel comfort in taking orders just because. Neither do I accept ignoring lingering issues and calling it “having faith”.
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If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it. (John 14:14)