I want my followers to know who I am

I am at about ninety-seven followers here in WordPress.com (Thank you all!). I want you guys to know who I am and what I think about things, but I’m just learning my voice as a writer, so I am not sure exactly what to say just yet, besides some of the obstacles that I’ve faced this year. This surely has been a frustrating year for me in so many different ways, but I am thankful to be healthy and to have a roof over my head. I started searching for freelancing jobs via Google.com, Craigslist.com, and etc. I am optimistic about it because I love writing, and I get that it’s a hard venture, but I don’t feel at this point I have anything to lose. Change is not easy, but I am coming to terms with my struggle holding on to jobs deal with the public, and truthfully, it isn’t the public, I am struggling to feel acclimated in a team environment. I feel this way because I feel that people deliberately do not treat me as a team mate. I have noticed routinely that I’ve been spoken to like I am slow, with some type of learning disability, and I am directly insulted. This treatment is rude, and meant to wedge me out of  earning a living. It is very frustrating, and surprising to me, I have gotten this treatment a lot from other women. I understand the job landscape is competitive, but I believe that a team, if there is such a team in  workplace, should work as such to accomplish goals. No one should be working at pushing the other out of the work place for any reason, and it surprises and saddens me that people really feel this way about one another in the work place. One thing that I am optimistic about is that one day this landscape work place will change and women will settle more into their roles as facilitators, and ones responsible for making sure their environment is smooth and friendly.

That was a strong tangent, sorry…

As far as you guys getting to know me, I am going to make a considerable effort to delve more into my self as an individual. There are lots of layers to me, and I admit to be a complex women. I am constantly reminded of my need to work on myself; my problems with anger, my fear of rejection, and so on. I am confident that I ll conquer these hurdles, and be the person that I want to be.


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